Cool.
Just a quick ?
Why the name changes, you admit to having 3 and take umbrage of being mistaken for a troll that is known to use the same operandi?
That is a very reasonable question. I took umbrage at the fact that after having individual conversations with those that misjudged me, being an active, on-topic, thoughtful, and mature member of the forum, I was accused of being a troll for one single post that resembled one facet of that person's behavior.
As to the reason for the three different identities, they were born out of necessity and not malicious deception. As Swampthing99, I posted that I thought I had upset a forum member and was leaving, not sure if I would return. I had no idea that my sincere appreciation for the forum and its members would cause such a problem. I can be a very insecure person and when I screw up I have a tendency to withdraw. Part of it is punishment toward myself for causing injury. Part of it is about not wanting to cause any more harm. And, yes there is a bit of, 'poor me' thrown in for good measure.
Sarah and I had been communicating regularly. She spoke to me about an issue she had and I gave her my opinion and advice. Then I didn't hear from her for a few days and assumed I had screwed up. I deleted my account and at that time had no idea there was an issue on the forum. When Sarah replied and told me she had just been busy and never to worry about upsetting her, I went right back to KB to see if I could get my account reinstated. That's when, technically as a guest, I saw that replies were made to my post and I read them.
As I was typing this I just realized another screw-up. When I first went back to the forum I was looking for an email I could contact a mod with. I could just as easily have posted as a guest, requesting a MOD to contact me, just as I did after creating the RussT identity. Anyway, as RussT my first post was asking a MOd to PM me, which Jules did. I explained everything and she said I was welcome back. I started posting again and made only the second mistake which apparently resembled Asmodel. I had never seen the "I imagine" thread before. In our discussions, Sarah told me that the Football team bus story was one of her favorites. When I posted about her I was trying to make my friend smile. I understand how, as I appeared, a brand new member posting about Sarah could have been mistaken as someone with ulterior motives. I responded to Bob's response with (3) question marks. It was posted as a frowny-faced emoji. I also understand how that could be taken by Jules as a disappointment by someone who had been caught at something and banned the identity.
As for Budalah99, I was being sincere in the original post that started all this. I was really happy here and you all really meant something to me. You had been understanding, and compassionate and didn't judge. I spent the last 39 years in a severely sexually unbalanced marriage and it meant a great deal to have people like myself to talk to, Because of that I created this identity so that I could still be a part of KB in some way. I decided not to post any more for fear of making another mistake and being mistaken again. The stress of second-guessing every word was more than I needed to deal with. I only started this thread to check on Sarah but I'm glad it's all out in the open now. I'd like to put everything behind us and be active again if you'll have me.
Thanks, Russ
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Try it without the hyphens to verify if you need to.