HI FC;
I trust you will overlook my taking the liberty to send you a PM but your topic is one which struck a kindred thread in me and while there have been some good responses to your thread I've found in the past such replies sometimes tend to be frivolent if not downright insulting.
As a guy I share your uneasiness about my fantasies but as I see it, every human on the planet has them and often a vivid imagination. As one who underwent some basic psychological training in my career I am of the opinion fantasies are a mental safety valve to minimize the probability one acts on them. As for imagination, which are next door to fantasies, consider that all the fictional novels, movie scripts are all produced by humans, like ourselves, with rich imaginations. I think you are perfectly normal, like most of the rest of us. I would love to kneel before a young stud, the younger the better and suck him off until his ball are completely drained. Better still, service his buddies, say about 6 of them, and each of them fuck my ass while I suck whoever is ready.
Serviceman