I am a femboy submissive and have been for 5 months. My mistress is strict but she never humiliates me in public or private. I know of other subs whose mistresses go out of their way to embarrass them in public and humiliate them in private. I never experience this and I wonder if other subs like it or just endure it. I am however a real submissive. I am collared and my cock is usually in a steel cage. My mistress disciplines me usually with a strap or bondage. Sometimes when we go out, depending on where we are going, i'm on a leash. She doesn't do this to embarrass me but for training. A lot of people see us and think we are very weird. Usually if we go to a Domme party then I am always on a leash and sometimes the leash is attached to a small loop on my cock cage. Depending on where we are going I may be dressed in fem clothes. She has me wear an outfit with a short skirt, like a toga. If I'm leashed to the cock cage I don't wear anything under. Otherwise I am allowed to wear panties or a thong and always pantyhose. Usually I always wear fem clothes and always panties. Since I've been with my domme she has started teaching me how to put on makeup. I always wear a simple nylon nightgown at night with panties. However on Saturdays I receive my weekly maintenance spanking in the evening and after I am put in a diaper and plastic panties which I have to wear for the night. I also wear a diaper from time to time for two reasons. I've had a wetting problem or because she wants me diapered. Being a submissive is very erotic for me and very sexual but it wouldn't be if I were humiliated and embarrassed. Even when I have to be spanked my mistress does not do it with anger. Its either as a punishment for something I have done wrong and then I know its for my own good or the weekly maintenance spankings which help me to understand my relationship to my mistress.. Although they are painful they are also sexually exciting. I always get an erection and often after the whipping she unlocks my cage and allows me to jerk off wile she watches and then I cum.